I FEEL MUCH BETTER NOW

“Well just don’t do anything then” was Pam’s advice to me the other day when I hit a dead end on a blog I was writing. The bulk of the thought was complete but I couldn’t close it. “You don’t HAVE to be doing something all of the time.” (Really…REALLY!!! …..well just tell that to my DNA/ADHD advisory board)

I told her I was writing a blog post and was having trouble completing it. It was like my brain just “shut down for vacation” and decided not to let me finish. I was in a twit, and Pam knows when that happens, I get restless. “Just calm down and it will come to you.” I knew she was right…but it gets a little annoying for me…I mean that part where she’s always right part. I was reminded that Hemmingway rewrote the last page of “Farewell To Arms” 39 times. Well I’m not remotely in the same universe as that great author, and I was well past 39 times. It is so frustrating to write even a simple email, much less a post for me. Some people are really prolific, quick witted and brainy…. I just plod along like a scatty turtle.

It’s next to impossible for me to slow down. I love discovering things, meeting people, listening to music, podcasts and creating stuff. I can’t write about anything I’m not absolutely passionate about. I use the speech function on my computer to read back to me what I’ve written, and if I get bored listening…. It’s rewrite, tweak, rewrite, tweak and rewrite again.

Well….I took Pam’s advice and went up to my writing room and played a couple games of Madden Football on the “Rookie” (easiest) setting. I picked the best team to play the weakest team and let a little steam out by beating the poo-poo out of that poor crummy team. It’s so cathartic and fulfilling in such a beautifully hostile way. All that to say, that didn’t last very long so I started talking to myself and saying, “Okay Greg just sit here for a moment and be calm like Pam does it…. restful quiet and reserved. I really started to get the hang of it …for about 20 seconds, give or take a few and immediately rediscovered something I‘ve always known.

IT DOES NOT WORK…THAT DOES NOT WORK AT ALL FOR ME!!! I AM NOT PAM!!! I WILL NEVER BE PAM!!!!! PAM IS NORMAL!!!! GREG IS NUTS!!!!! (Deep breath)

I feel much better now that I let that out. Cheers!!!!